July 28, 2025
I woke up this morning on a tear-stained pillow, my soul having sensed this day before my mind was able to comprehend it.
One year ago today, at 10:25 PM, a senseless act of gun violence forever changed our lives by taking away a father, son, brother, nephew, cousin, and friend.
Every day, John’s absence serves as a poignant reminder of the terrible loss suffered. Its a profound ache in our hearts that never seems to go away.
We miss him each and every day.
This past year has been a tumultuous journey. Each step forward felt countered by a step back, a relentless oscillation between progress and pain. Smiles emerged at cherished memories, only to be overcome by fresh waves of anguish, tears a stark reminder of his absence.
But, I’m still here.
I’ve tried my best to honor the promises I made to John as I stood in front of his casket and said, “I promise to find purpose in this pain and will forever say your name. Your death is not in vain.”
The highest priority has been to keep the promise, which has been demonstrated by:
- Joining Mothers Of Murdered Columbus Children to help make our city safer with many initiatives including ‘Silence The Violence’ Mall Walks
- Attending our city’s vigil to honor victims of gun violence
- Participating in the ‘Walk For Peace’ against Gun Violence with Moms Demand Action
Though grief may linger, it has illuminated a new purpose: to perpetually honor the memory of my son, John, and nurture the vibrant legacy he left behind. I strive each day in the hope that he looks down and smiles, knowing how much he truly inspires me.
The fight for justice rages on, not just for John, but for every life tragically impacted by gun violence
One More Hug
John,
I’ve never been a huge fan of AI. But on the first anniversary of your tragic passing, it gave me a chance to hug you one more time 
Until we meet again 
Love,
Momma