July 18, 2025
Our Prosecutor’s Advocate called. We have scheduled a meeting for this coming Tuesday with the team for an update on the case. I’m a nervous wreck. Ten days will mark the first anniversary of John’s tragic death and my heart is exceedingly heavy. What are we going to hear? Could this be the call telling us we’re finally closing in on the end of this heart-wrenching legal nightmare?
The moment the call ended, a Facebook post caught my eye. Its message was incredibly relevant, echoing a profound sense of truth, particularly John’s affirmation of his unwavering support and his promise to be there on Tuesday.
The Soul Journey
Losing a child doesn’t just break your heart—
it shatters your entire soul. 
You don’t “get over” it.
You wake up every day learning how to carry a love
that no longer has a place to go.
No milestone is ever the same.
No birthday passes without tears.
And some days, just breathing feels like a betrayal.
They were your world.
Your heartbeat.
And in a moment, the world kept turning…
but yours stopped.
People will say,
“You’re so strong.”
But they don’t see the nights you screamed into your pillow,
or the days you smiled for everyone else while quietly falling apart.
Grief is love with nowhere to land.
And you, dear parent, are living proof of a love
so powerful, it outlives death.
Say their name.
Remember their laugh.
Tell their story.
Because they mattered.
And they always will.
You are not alone.
And your child is still with you…
just in a different way now.